This is the worst ever!!!

Do you believe in luck? I do believe. I have abused the luck given and now left nothing. Numbers of bad luck just paid a visit and my week was tremendously down. How do you feel when there's no one care for you? No one helps you? No one was there for you? Only my families were there for me. But still I get naggings and scoldings from them. I think this is how family members treated you whenever there's problem hitting on you!!!

I can't believe that doing assignment is the best excuses ever that can be given. Me, as a student as well, I did not choose to keep myself away when anyone next to me have difficulties. Ya, only your assignments worth to put effort and time, mine are useless!!! I need help but you weren't here, I'm fine! But what about mentally help?!?! NOT AT ALL!!! I cried but you did not comfort me!! Do you know how many sleepless + tears nights I've been through?! Hide under the blanket and just cry my heart out isn't what I want to go through here! I understand human are selfish since the first day I stepped here, but I can't believe that even you treated me so as well, being selfish to me is not what I want!!! I'm not a 24 hours call centre that will actually wait for your call! You wanted to do your assignments, I'm fine! But at least a sms? A call? Skype message? None at all! And when you've finished, only you remember my existance. And the whole thing repeated again and again. How many times we've argued over these?! And how many times have you set your promises?! It's all empty after all...!!! Being a stupid nerdie waiting for you is not worth!!! I was helpless, I was sad, I was stress, I was down, I was hurt but you were not there to help, listen and comfort. WHERE WERE YOU THEN?!?!? You are such a coward that choose to hide and run away!!! Even when the word popped up, you didn't even give any reaction or response!! I started to hate you, that hurt me so much, that gives me so much of tears, that left me alone when I needed you the most!!!!

Life was so scary to me recently. I hate being alone, I hate going out alone. Knocked my head and legs on the taxi car door in one day, having troubles in purchasing online, and until now I still get nothing from them!!! Arghhh.... Why my life have to be so many obstacles?!!? I can't even do simple things nicely. All I get in return is always the bad side! I can no longer take any other heavier attacks anymore!!!! I am weak, emo, and moodless!!! This summer is really not a good one......

I need love, I need care, I need a good night sleep!!! I need someone that cares for me, care about my feelings and understand me. Not a MAN like you that awfully hurt me and left me living in darkness alone!!!!!