为什么每次都被人放飞机？我可以生气吗？

Friends

每当我在笑别人没朋友，人缘差的时候，我又曾几何时回头望，看看自己有多少个朋友？多少个好朋友？友谊是需要培养，需要灌水施肥的。而我这个懒懒的农夫，却一直都没这样做。等到朋友少了，走了才后悔。

我好怕，好不知所措，好无助。生活可以简单点吗？

I am complicated. Don't know what I want. Do I want a change? Do I want things to be changed? I am scared, but I want to try things out. I am afraid of regrets. I am in a HUGE dilemma. Please show me some sign of hope! Helpp~~~

I Love You!!!

My sky is brighter now! Thanks to everyone that cared, asked, helped, supported, loved me when my sky was so dark.

I promise, I will be patient, tolerant and wise. I will not disappoint people that love me, I will try to change, for people that are worth.

Daddy and mummy, I love you guys. I appreciate....!!!

Lovey dovey....

P/S, I Love You, my dear......

RIDICULOUS

I don't need sympathy!!!

Again, you were the only one that have stress, assignments deadlines and afraid of thepast one year.

Whereas me? I'm here for holidays, no studies no stress, and am not afraid of not going to graduate!!!!

RUBBISHHH!!!!!!!!!

This is the worst ever!!!

Do you believe in luck? I do believe. I have abused the luck given and now left nothing. Numbers of bad luck just paid a visit and my week was tremendously down. How do you feel when there's no one care for you? No one helps you? No one was there for you? Only my families were there for me. But still I get naggings and scoldings from them. I think this is how family members treated you whenever there's problem hitting on you!!!

I can't believe that doing assignment is the best excuses ever that can be given. Me, as a student as well, I did not choose to keep myself away when anyone next to me have difficulties. Ya, only your assignments worth to put effort and time, mine are useless!!! I need help but you weren't here, I'm fine! But what about mentally help?!?! NOT AT ALL!!! I cried but you did not comfort me!! Do you know how many sleepless + tears nights I've been through?! Hide under the blanket and just cry my heart out isn't what I want to go through here! I understand human are selfish since the first day I stepped here, but I can't believe that even you treated me so as well, being selfish to me is not what I want!!! I'm not a 24 hours call centre that will actually wait for your call! You wanted to do your assignments, I'm fine! But at least a sms? A call? Skype message? None at all! And when you've finished, only you remember my existance. And the whole thing repeated again and again. How many times we've argued over these?! And how many times have you set your promises?! It's all empty after all...!!! Being a stupid nerdie waiting for you is not worth!!! I was helpless, I was sad, I was stress, I was down, I was hurt but you were not there to help, listen and comfort. WHERE WERE YOU THEN?!?!? You are such a coward that choose to hide and run away!!! Even when the word popped up, you didn't even give any reaction or response!! I started to hate you, that hurt me so much, that gives me so much of tears, that left me alone when I needed you the most!!!!

Life was so scary to me recently. I hate being alone, I hate going out alone. Knocked my head and legs on the taxi car door in one day, having troubles in purchasing online, and until now I still get nothing from them!!! Arghhh.... Why my life have to be so many obstacles?!!? I can't even do simple things nicely. All I get in return is always the bad side! I can no longer take any other heavier attacks anymore!!!! I am weak, emo, and moodless!!! This summer is really not a good one......

I need love, I need care, I need a good night sleep!!! I need someone that cares for me, care about my feelings and understand me. Not a MAN like you that awfully hurt me and left me living in darkness alone!!!!!

L.I.V.E.R.P.O.O.L

Hello Peeps!!!

Do you guys miss me a lot?!?! Haha.. I am doing great here. Weather is treating us better now and we are running out of money already. Anyone can help?!

Sigh... Life here isn't easy. Through photos you might find us happy and relaxing, but you will never know the hard time that we had faced and we are going to face soon!!

Human changed. Everything can be seen clearly here. Bad people can be good, and of course good people can be bad. Things that we might seen wrongly previously, it could be a lesson for us. I learnt a lot, and seen a lot of things here. Human can be very selfish, can be very fake, can be very kia-su and can be very unpredictable!

Lending a hand is not hard especially when people say, sharing is caring. Education and knowledge is something that we can never find an end in learning them. Why not you just share out what you have? Ethics people will not be plagiarizing your work!! Friends can be enemy at anytime and this summer programme is able to change a lot of things and situation!

Now that I learnt that there's nothing call FOREVER. I try not to believe it and lie to myself, but this is impossible already. With all the things that I see and experience, I have to tell myself that, I have to be tough and brave. I always believe that treating a person good, there will be something good in return. I believe that, right until now. I hope people around me will be a little bit naive and blurr, with that only I can feel that, the world has hope!

Hahha.... Don't really understand what am I writing though!! Haha.

I was told to update my blog and ended up with an uninteresting blog post. Sad case.

Okay then, update some happy words here.

Staying with all my friends is a happiness!!! Buy groceries together, cook together, slumber around together, watch XXX channel together, wash clothes together, walk to Uni together, even wash toilet also together!! Hahahhahah.... we are just too close to each other!!! We can even sleep with our doors wide open!! Wooo... Not many people here can do so!! Lucky us. I am so gonna miss the life here. Even though our hostel is a bit off from the city and Uni, but I have already accepted the fact and take it as an exercise!! HAVE TO SLIM DOWN!!! Haha... *crossing my fingers*

I miss family, miss friends, miss everyone in Malaysia. I miss uuu....